It's been a year not writting at my blog. I am back hehe....I have been through a lot. Dad passed away last Christmas. It's like a big wave hit my life. He was gone too soon. I still miss him a lot. My dream that dad will walk me to my wedding aisle gone already. That made me really sad. He was always there for me. He was the one I can rely and count on. I feel like I lost my balance and couldn't stand right. I did understand when dad said that he was tired already. I replied, "It's ok dad if you want to rest. Thank you for taking care of me all this time. You are the best dad ever. " I thank God that He gave me opportunity to look after him while he was at the hospital and a chance to say my gratitude and last goodbye to him. It meant a lot to me. I will never forget you dad. Forever you're always in my heart. It's been almost a year you're gone. It's just like yesterday. I am still crying in my sleep cause I miss him so much. But I know he doesn't want to see me crying and sad all the time. He is happy now and find rest in God's place. Someday I will meet him again in eternity.
It's hard to live without man in the house. I have to deal with many things like broken water pump, shortcut electricity, leakage, taking care of mom and many other things. If God allows this, I know I can get through it. All I can say God is good. I am not angry He took dad home. Birth, soulmate and death are in God's hand. Who are we? I surrender myself in His great might hand. I declare His sovereignty in my life. I won't be afraid because He is My Father too. If my dad loved me that much, My Father is in Heaven love me more. I never doubt Him. I learnt to be thankful in every circumstances. I cried a lot. I also smiled a lot. That's life! :)
During this pandemic, God once again give me a chance to look after mom. For certain people know about my story with her. Nothing to be proud of but it crushed and shape me into a better person. More humble, more forgiving, more patient, more loving, more like Christ. I learn to cook, clean the house, be a good sister, be a good daughter. What a drastic change of Susan :p I am glad what God is doing in me. He is preparing me for something that I don't know yet. Someday I will write and tell what He has done in me. Maybe 3-4 years from now. Walking with God is always excited. I can't wait what the next days will bring. Good and beautiful things that's for sure!
Friends, no matter what you've been throught these days, one thing you must remember that He will never forget nor forsake us. He is preparing good things and wonderful plan. Even we can't see it yet, but receive it by your faith. It is happening! Way out, answer of prayers, healing, new job/career, good health, promotion, reconciliation are on the way! Be courage, keep the faith, always put your trust in Him.
Cheers,
~Castly~
